Organisation

So Operation Organisation (I have a tumblr that I post slightly more frequently on with shorter posts such as this one) is currently failing. I hate it when I can’t seem to follow through with things. All my work is piling up, my room looks like a post-war zone — the only thing I’m proud of is that I’m doing slightly more reading than I have been recently… but even that can improve. 

I get these moments where I feel like I need to drastically change something about myself, about what I do, but then I fear doing so because our brains are innately partial to order and routine … My “order and routine” ironically being disorder and procrastination… But I need to break out of this routine, to create something more organised, so that I have more control over my life. It’s odd because I feel as though I have no spare time when, 80% of the time, I’m probably doing something that’s not related to anything (namely: being on the internet). I have the spare time, but it’s being used as procrastination-time which is entirely different. Procrastination-time is a meaningless filler — laden with sacks of Stress about what you should be doing — whereas spare time can actually be used for something.

I seriously need to yank on the reins of this mad stallion that is life and ride steadily in the direction I want to.